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To
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. . . From Ignatius |
A great part of my life was travel. I was a
pilgrim. From the time my eyes were opened to the
mystery of
God-in-Christ in my life, I became even more a spiritual pilgrim.
On this interior journey my great desire was
always to tell people about God,
and about Jesus,
crucified and risen, and help them feel the freedom God offers.
I wanted to bring the old message of the church
to people in a new way. Why was this so?
[1] We Can Meet God Personally.
I experienced a direct and personal meeting
with God, particularly during the months of 1522,
at Manresa,
a small town near Barcelona in the north-east of Spain,
where God taught
me like a child at school.
Yes I, Ignatius of Loyola, Inigo as they called
me, experienced God
... Father,
Son and Spirit … nameless and unknowable, mysterious and yet near,
sharing God’s
self with me in a manner beyond all concrete imaginings.
I experienced God in a nearness and a graciousness
impossible to confuse or mistake.
I experienced
God, not simply human words describing God but God, God's very self.
I experienced God’s glory. I knew God, as
you would say today, experientially.
This is grace
... a divine gift.
I believe that God ... Father, Son and Spirit
... desires to give this same gift to everyone.
The grace that
I received during those months at Manresa was not something
that I considered
a special privilege for myself or a chosen few.
I wrote down the process of my experience
in a notebook
which I called
Spiritual Exercises.
I gave these Spiritual Exercises to anyone
for whom such spiritual help might be profitable.
Just as
strolling, walking and running are exercises for the body,
these Spiritual Exercises are ways of examining our awareness or consciousness,
meditating, contemplating, praying vocally and mentally, and other spiritual
activities. Their aim is to ready us for freedom, to
be freed from all self-centred desires and feelings
to be able to discover in our own lives God’s own desiring and willing.
I
did this as a lay person, before I went back to school to learn the elements
of Latin,
and then to spend seven years to University of Paris in France
where I studied arts, philosophy and theology to prepare for ordination
to the priesthood.
I gave my
Exercises to others, convinced that God desires to communicate directly
to us
if we are generous, eager to discover God's will, and to act responsibly
in the world.
Over the
years, I have seen that if we are willing to ready ourselves generously
according to the process of these Exercises, in time God will personally
lead us.
When this
happens, we experience in our own lives the power of God's own freedom.
This simple
and yet stupendous conviction of mine is the key to my spirituality.
which would be betrayed if reduced to any of its different methods.
By different
exterior ways of readying ourselves, the Exercises lead us
to become more open to an interior dynamic, where God touches us directly.
This graced
dynamic moves us beyond all tangible assurances, including my methods,
to grow confidently toward our final, fearful, creaturely choice at the
end of our lives.
To experience
God directly and learn that the mystery we name God is near to each of
us
and meets us personally, is the goal of the journey of the Spiritual Exercises.
Do you
desire that the Father, Son and Spirit share themselves with you?
Do you desire to base your life choices on the experience of God’s desire
for you?
Then enter
confidently into these Spiritual Exercises.
[2]
Disposing and Opening Ourselves to Meet God.
A fruitful
making of the Spiritual Exercises will cost effort.
It greatly helps when making the Exercises if we begin them in a
magnanimous spirit
and with great openness towards Christ, our Creator and Lord,
offering him all our powers to desire and choose,
so that God may take and guide us in all things, our whole person and all
we have.
The Spiritual
Exercises ask a price -- our time and our patience and the discipline
to limit things that would drain our energies and leave us unable
to find a good space for the daily times of solitude that these Spiritual
Exercises require.
The price
is a commitment to prayer, each day if possible, at a special time, the
best time,
and with more focus within our prayer than we may have been used to.
The price
is waiting for God to touch our being personally,
and trusting God to do this.
The price
may be that we will have to surrender our own personal methods of praying
and wait ... at least for a time, in confusion or emptiness, even with
a distaste for prayer.
In the
Spiritual Exercises you will begin to experience interiorly movements --
a variety of feelings towards which you will become progressively more
sensitive.
The interior
movements that we experience can be of many different kinds:
joy, uplift, hope, enlightenment, peace,
enthusiasm, comfort, happiness, or tears,
dryness, pain, sadness, fear,
anxieties, turmoil, temptation, discouragement, or many others.
In my Spiritual
Exercises notebook, I call them inner movements, in Spanish "agitaciones",
coming from good or evil “spirits”, or sources outside our own free choices.
In my notebook
I have given guidelines to help others making or giving the Exercises
to sift through these various inner movements and discern their origin.
[3]
Making the Spiritual Exercises in Our Daily Life.
The way
you will do the Spiritual Exercises is, as your contemporaries now call
it,
the Spiritual Exercises in Daily Life.
You will
be doing the Exercises in the midst of your normal everyday life and work,
and the journey you are beginning will take you many months.
If you were
to make this same journey in an enclosed setting,
away from your normal place of living and of working,
you would usually do it over a period of one month in a retreat house.
In Europe
of the sixteenth century we did not have retreat houses, as you call them
today,
and anyone who made the Exercises, even in a closed setting of thirty days,
lived in a boarding house, away from home, sometimes shopping and cooking
for oneself,
went to church several times a day for mass, vespers and benediction,
and had to go outside for toiletry needs, and to the stream to wash dirty
clothes.
For anyone
making the Exercises in an enclosed way there were many distractions,
more than for someone making the Exercises this way in your retreat houses
today.
Another
big difference in my time had to do with the culture, a unified way of
looking at life.
Your lives today seem to be divided. In my time this was not so.
Society was not schizoid, as many see societies today, that is, split or
separated.
In
the past seventy years, you also seem to have discovered what you call
the unconscious,
and you appear to experience this as being separated from your conscious
self.
In my time
people did not experience the public and private spheres of life as separate.
We did not speak of the secular and the sacred as if they were separated,
as you do now.
When people
withdrew into a enclosed setting for thirty days to make the Spiritual
Exercises,
they found it easy to live as one reality what you call secular and spiritual
experiences,
they did not easily become locked into an unreal world of sterile piety
and ideas.
The advantage
today of doing the Spiritual Exercises within your daily life and work
is an opportunity to learn how to integrate better into your life
the movement of God's Spirit.
Doing the Exercises in Daily Life will also probably give you more scope
for adaptation,
applying them to your own particular character and life situation.
Over the
coming months, many of your daily activities of family, work, and leisure,
may at first appear to take you away from God,
but you will discover how they can give a greater realism to your relationship
with God.
I assure
you that if you are faithful each day to your times for prayer and review,
and remain generously open to what you will discover during the Exercises
journey,
you will learn how you can be surprised by God in all the happenings of
your life.
This is
the goal of the Exercises ... to find God always ... to experience God
personally …
to respond in love to God’s love ... in all the choices you freely make.
[4]
The One Giving You the Exercises Is Your Companion.
The one
meeting you each week to give you the Exercises is your companion on the
journey,
not your superior, your judge, your confessor, but a fellow pilgrim with
you,
one whom God will use, at this point in your life,
to be an instrument for your guidance as you make my Spiritual Exercises.
I have
given your companion instructions how to adapt my Spiritual Exercises for
you
so as not to block God’s action in you and to allow God to speak directly
with you.
I presuppose
that you and the one guiding you will act as companions together on a journey,
and that each of you comes to the Exercises with good will and mutual trust,
so that your relation will be one of friendliness, gentleness, and respect
for each other.
As the
one doing the Exercises, be faithful each week to your times for prayer
and review,
especially your review each evening of your prayer times and the events
of the whole day.
When your
companion comes to visit you each week or when you make contact,
share briefly what has been happening in your week and your times of prayer
and review,
the ups and downs ... the insights ... the struggles ... success feelings
... failure feelings.
By listening
to your experiences, your companion can guide you to continue your journey.
The first task is to help you get beyond the barriers that stop God being
personal with you.
This may take some time or it may happen quickly.
Besides
being an opportunity for conversation about what has been happening in
your week,
the meeting is a time for teaching, explanation, and discussion of possible
experimenting.
When it
becomes clear that you are allowing God to be personal with you,
that you are free enough to allow yourself to be touched by God's mystery,
then the companion guiding you through the Exercises moves into a second
task.
This second
task is to sit on the sidelines, as it were, but attentive and listening
actively,
while God directly and personally leads you both from within and from without.
During
the Exercises, it is always better in bringing your desires to God
that your Creator and Lord deals directly with you in a way that is unique
to you,
inflaming you with love and gratitude to God for the gift of life and of
all you are.
God is
always creating you, redeeming you from your brokenness, and reconciling
you
by inspiring you to share your life with others and so learn how to share
God’s life.
Your companion
giving you the Exercises will not favour one side or other of a choice
but, standing in the centre like a balance, will allow God to deal directly
with you
as a unique creation of God, and you to deal directly with God as your
Creator.
There are
two misunderstandings which your companion will help you to avoid.
The first
is that God is unable to communicate directly with you,
and that you can never have a close personal experience of God.
Against
this paralysing error, your companion helps you notice what you feel in
your heart.
The second
misunderstanding is widespread in your day because your society is in transition,
like my own was in the sixteenth century,
You
may be tempted to look for black and white securities that are not God,
and wrongly presume that every good feeling you have is directly from God.
Against
this over-simplification, your companion will guide and help you
to become better attuned to what movements in your heart are more likely
from God.
It is often
by one or other of these two different kinds of misunderstanding
that an evil spirit can obstruct the good work that God desires to do in
you,
or can trivialise your persevering efforts to be open to God's initiatives.
[5]
My Hope for You.
During these
Spiritual Exercises my hope for you is that week by week, slowly and gradually,
you will come to a greater ease and a greater familiarity in entering the
mystery of God,
and feeling God's love for you in the way I was able to experience God's
love for me.
My hope
is that you will grow in spiritual freedom, in love for God and in union
with God,
through a deepening love for Christ, our risen Lord and Leader.
Later in
your life, as you grow in faith by continuing to reflect on the word of
God,
you will find more readily what God desires and wants for you in different
situations.
You will
recognise more readily Christ in all people, in their struggles towards
freedom.
and you will be able to make true and good choices in all you do and all
you are.
My hope
is that you will be able to find God with ease in all things, always and
everywhere.
In the communion
of saints I will pray that you will grow in this awareness of God's presence,
an experience I can never directly describe, but which you must discover
for yourself,
finding God’s continuous action, in the private and public worlds where
you live.
In the
communion of all the saints I will pray that eventually God will so touch
you
that you will become able to guide gratefully all the desires of your heart,
and every action and decision that will flow from these desires,
towards the joyful sharing of God’s life by the generous sharing of your
life with others.
In your
Spiritual Exercises journey may you learn how specially loved you are by
God,
Father, Son and Spirit ... Mystery beyond us, Word all around us, and Breath
within us,
God’s intimately shared self who as one desires to share with you all God
is.
In the power
of God’s love, poured into your heart through Christ’s own human love for
you,
may you find yourself more and more able to give God all you have and all
that you are.
As God's
personal love in Christ’s Easter love for you transforms your heart by
the Spirit,
may you find yourself moved more and more towards love for all who touch
your life.
United
with you in Christ as you make this journey,
Ignatius.
This
letter in the name of Ignatius Loyola
to one about to make
the journey of the Spiritual Exercises in Daily Life
is my
refomulation of a letter written in the early 1980s by John Veltri sj,
(click
here),
who gave me the Spiritual
Exercises at Pickering in Canada in July 2002
when I made them for
a third time in my life.
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